... Yep. Just as the title sais. I had really disgusting accident. I was puting my pics (for school) on the floor coz i wanted to count it. So i kneeled down and all i heard was "crrrack" And then i felt terrible pain and saw my leg. It was lying on the floor not with me but next to me. Aww! that was awful. My knee wasnt on the right place so when i looked at this i tot im gonna faint. And this fuckin pain. I live alone so nobody heard me and phone was too far from me. In one minute it got back on the right place and bah! stopped hurting. Awesome isnt it anyway now my knee got so huge now that i feel like an elephant. ahh nothing will stop me from visiting Deviant

So a new year has begun. so many undone things must be done in this year. I promiced myself to:

- drink 1 l of mineral water everyday
- eat more tomatos
- and other vegetables
- quit this damn nicorette gum
- to be a friend with my diet
- draw more
- finish school at least
- go to psychiatrist
- wake up at daylight

Yes i guess i won't do any of them after all.
But its good to try isnt it?

I feel much better now thanks to Eva. Why do i know that? Because i'am thinking about those sausage in fridge...

Christmas are so boring. I mean the time after. Good I brought books and laptop with me.Although I still can't get use to this keyboard. I'm drawing Irene and teresa now and as usual i'am resizing it al the time until it won't be as huge as my wall. I don't know why I'm doing it..

Anyway today me and my family were invited by a woman whose son has brain paralise. Once the doctor said he will be blind and to protect his eyes she had to live in darkness for two years.
But she saved his sight (good word? eyesight) It's incredible how mother loves her child isn't it? anyway it feels stupid to say thats my left knee hurts sometimes or my eyelid is shaking.

Have you ever been in love? Sometimes I think it's the worst thing which can happen to people. In almost every book or movie autors sais this is the most beautiful feeling. But it isn't.I was so tired with all those romantic stories and so cold and heartless that i thought i will never be able to love someone. Falling in damn love means end of your freedom. Have you ever been in situation when you care so much and person whom you like doesn't give a shit about you? Usually i was this kind of person who used to ignore ppl :shame on me: (I stopped doing this and i'm sorry if I ever hurted anyone from DA with my ignorance)and now when it's different it kills my mind. Waiting for a phonecall or any message like a dog for bone...I don't like feeling weakness. At least i have few friends here and my lovely Irene - but she doesn't talk to me often Look what love made with Teresa yeah.
the person i love will never give me back this feeling i just know it thats why it sucks!
Anyway.

Someone (i wont say who ) sent me a note and asked me why i dont draw naked ppl. And. It wasn't first request like this. I usually don't do requests but I think I could. Not naked because i don't feel like drawing this. But hm hm.. Maybe topless. Its not naked just haf-naked rite?